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[May. 12th, 2006|05:52 pm] |
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okay... so i really just haven't posted here in a while.. and livejournal has changed tragically.. it's fuckin' crazy. okay. i'm over it.
anyhooters...
things are "eh" these days.
haha, wednesday, day 15, was marked the longest that i have been effin' single since i was fourteen!! crazzzyy stuff
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if any of you are active myspace(ers), www.myspace.com/karashley
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[Apr. 22nd, 2006|11:07 am] |
on a very much so lighter note.... i <3 photoshop |
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[Apr. 22nd, 2006|10:38 am] |
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| | brown park --- bright eyes | ] |
so it took me a few days to finally do this... but.. here it is.
Meg
- her favorite songs were "Brown Park" and "Saturday as Usual" by Bright Eyes
- she had the most beautiful singing voice.. low, and a bit raspy.
- she never let anyone cry alone
- she told all of her friends "i love you" instead of goodbye, because that's what she was most afraid of: goodbyes
- she had my name tattooed on her
- she once drove from ohio to here in the middle of the night to tell me she loved me, hug me, and tell everything is going to be all right because she would make sure of it
- everything she did was beautiful
- she lived by these words:
"and me I'm in my bedroom drawing in my notebook
because my hand thinks I'm an artist
but my heart knows I'm a poet
It's just words they mean so little to me
i can't seem to deal with total trust
there is something very wrong with me"
"We learned to flow like wind in waves"
- she leftWe learned to flow like wind in waves
a letter under her mattress at the institution that said:
"It's not because of them that I'm leaving, it's because of them I stayed longer than I planned too. They are life, they are love, they are all that I will truly miss. Amy, you have made so many of my dreams come true, and I wish people could see how beautiful you were on the inside as well. You have done so many wonderful things for me, in which we know I could never pay back. Shawna, you were the family I never had. My mom, my sister. You were always there for me, and I will continue to thank you even beyond the grave. Kara, you were my first love. My one real love. I'm keeping the first and last poems you ever wrote for me in my pocket. I don't want to part from them, from you. I want you more than anyone to eulogize me. I want to leave this world with your voice and your words. Amy, Shawna, Kara, you three are what love is and remains. I love you."
<3
i missed you even before you left. |
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[Apr. 18th, 2006|09:28 pm] |
This morning, at 4am, my first girlfriend, first love, first everything, killed herself. I found out at 10:45am.
The last time I talked to her, she told me she loved me and missed me. She admitted herself to a mental institution. Now she's gone... I found out on my way class... and just sat in my car the entire time and cried. Ladies and gentleman.. I never cry, mind you. I'm not sure when all of this is really going to hit... but it will eventually.
She was such a good person, she really was. Beautiful, bright, funny, introduced me to Bright Eyes. She just had a hard life.
MegGem,
Goodnight, and goodbye, quickly. I'll miss you.
MEG KRASIE
02.11.85 - 04.18.06 |
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[Apr. 17th, 2006|02:02 pm] |
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| |  question face! | ] |
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| | a perfect sonnet --- bright eyes | ] |
a list... [positive followed by negative]
* i like when Bright Eyes serenades me.
* my bank hates me and i hate my bank
* i love making new friends
* i hate feeling so lost and confused
* my hair is really soft today
* the only thing i can rely on these days is coffee
* my shirt is shiny!
* i didn't get the part in that new Naomi Watts movie
the i <3 list
i <3:
* coffee
* my ab lounge
* my nipple piercings
* my new(ish) tattoo
* text messages
* laughing at nothing for twenty minutes
* watching movies ALL day
* my roof
* my white hat
* IM conversations with people at 2:30am until 5am
* my boss
* throwing food at my sister (and vice versa)
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[Apr. 13th, 2006|10:17 am] |
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[Apr. 1st, 2006|01:49 am] |
THE L WORD
bad news. the fourth season of the L word is gonna suck. two reasons: bette/tina custody battle (howww cliche) and sara shahi (carmen) isn't coming back. |
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[Mar. 30th, 2006|09:34 am] |
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so, i've been.... not so okay lately. i'm not sure why. but things suck right now. again... i'm not sure why.
i've felt so, i'm not sure how to put it, but, involuntarily emo... and i hate it... and i can't control it.
i hurt, all over... for some reason.
i need some head clearing... and hitting it against my wall for three hours while not sleeping doesn't help.
i will sleep another day...
what's the point when my dreams are infected with words you used to say?
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[Mar. 16th, 2006|10:56 pm] |
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| | from a balance beam --- bright eyes | ] |
this song is quite ironic for me to be listening to.
so, i've been thinking a lot lately... about probably too many things... it all comes with not being able to sleep, and staring at the deadened walls above me, or the sinking floor below me... the spot i gaze out of on my window has been worn down somehow...
i want to get out of here. i don't know where i want to go though... but i'd be set as long as i brought along my sketchbook, two mechanical pencils, and three tubes of chapstick.
like art could save a wretch like me. |
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[Mar. 15th, 2006|02:13 pm] |
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| |  yyayayayayaya | ] |
my refund check came.
heheheheheeheh YAY! |
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